What is blue in your veins is making me red in the face, is what keeps your family together. It's what tore mine apart. It's what is pumping ceaselessly through my murmuring heart.
There is salt in the fish tank, tears in the ocean. You are sobbing in the shower. You don't want anyone to hear your pain but the drain and the pipes in your lungs don't get worked out enough, I want you to sing louder now than you've ever been allowed to before.
So she sang, "La-di-da, why does life always hurt like this?" She sang "Na-na-na, when do I get to catch a break from this?"
So she sang songs from the black hole. My head, my soul, trying to leave this heavenly body before I lose control.
When I was ten I used to pretend that I was an astronaut, hanging weightless over my backyard. And now that I have turned nineteen, I only dream of leaving earth. My friends want jobs and all I want is to live a thousand years and never do the same thing twice. I am no longer afraid of myself and what I want from this.
I want to sing songs from the black hole. My head, my soul, trying to leave this heavenly body before I lose control.
released December 1, 2013
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